December 1st: Christmas for the Homeless (November COMPLETE)

Merry early Christmas to everyone!

So I've decided I prefer the format of explaining how my first goal went and then moving onto my new goal for this month, so from here on out I will be doing it this way.

For November I set some fears up for myself to conquer, well the bird one was a little challenging because it's November and all birds decided to get away from this cold weather and head south, lucky buggers. My friend I mentioned previously about the bird fear and terrorizing me promised when Spring comes around she will go feed the geese with me, so that fear will still be conquered! Although I'm still afraid... 
For my bridge fear - it was conquered - sort of. I managed to walk across the bridge, take some pictures of the view, but the whole time I was just anxious to get off, it was shaky, loud, cars zooming by terrified me. It just wasn't a good feeling being up there and so as soon as I walked across I was quick to head back to the other side to get to our car. I'm very glad I could do it, and even if I didn't conquer the actual fear I can still say I have tried!
For my criticism one it didn't go how I planned, which is funny. I really want to take my art in to be criticized by a real tattoo artist and try to get an apprenticeship but the timing isn't right I've realized; My life is going in such a different direction right now that if I was given the opportunity would I really be ready to take it? I don't want to have that question floating in my head I want to be above one hundred percent sure so thus led to my decision. Instead, I dared to explore the internet site of YouTube and made a channel where I dedicated to gaming, who better to critique you than people on the internet? Sure they may be hiding behind another computer screen like you or I but they still have the freedom to speak their mind. I was surprised with the praise I have gotten and attention my channel quickly gained, it was a great feeling to let myself be vulnerable for a bit and know that it was worth it. Although I kept it hidden from my friends for awhile they managed to find my channel any ways and they told me I gave them a good laugh, which also made me smile... 
This fear was conquered. 
So what I have learned from this goal is to just step outside the box, face a fear, you may not overcome it but you will always know you have tried and have a great story to tell.
If you'd like to check out my YouTube channel: www.youtube.com/gamingsavi

Now, onto my December goal.
I just finished setting up my small little Christmas tree before I wrote this and I'm starting to get in that mood that Christmas-y mood, even while writing this I'm listening to Christmas jingles, oh dear! 

If someone asked you, "What is Christmas?" How would you respond? 
As soon as Halloween was over the next day I went into Starbucks to find that they already had decorations up, a week or so later I found the mall playing Christmas music already and the television taken over with Christmas commercials. I was at the gas station three days ago and I was talking to the cashier, she told me she had stopped celebrating Christmas ten years ago. She said she doesn't believe in it any more and that's when she asked me, "What is Christmas?" My reply was a saddened response of "Just another marketing tool." She nodded and said, "Exactly it..." 
If you really think of it, the true Christmas feeling we got vanished when we found out Santa wasn't real but we are also told to learn the real meaning, it's a time of giving but most of us have forgotten that. When we think of giving we think of giving someone an overpriced present that has no true sentimental meaning to it. We expect or demand something instead of just being happy with whatever we may receive. This is what has ruined what Christmas is meant to be. 
So my goal for this month is all about giving to people who will truly appreciate the meaning of giving. I will be going down to Vancouver before/during/after Christmas and giving the homeless food. Our left over turkey dinners will be made into small meals for them like; sandwiches, desserts, etc. 
If I do this I think I'll really learn the true meaning of Christmas, giving something to someone and not expect anything back in return. Isn't that what this month is suppose to be about? Giving selflessly? 
I'm feeling jollier already, ho ho ho everyone.

If you'd like to donate (give perishable foods, etc.) or help in any way feel free to contact me:
savs@live.ca


Fighting!
Savi

                                          This little 3ft tree holds a lot of love and memories, I've had it since I was born and it's all I need to make my home remind me of the Xmas spirit.

Here is me conquering the bridge...Sorta *cough cough* Beautiful view though!